Fuck me.

Fuck me, why can't I ever sleep? Fucking restless...
I'm not tired, but everyone else around me are all content in their slumber..

Upset.

I fail at life.
"/quit life"

A year.

It's been a year.
It doesn't feel like you're gone. I still can't believe it... Standing in front of your grave I could remember everything like it was yesterday. I woke up this morning and I recollected what had happened last year. I cried. I couldn't believe it, I still can't...
You told me I was smart. You had faith in me when no one else did... You took care of me when everyone had left me... I feel horrible that I didn't take time to think about you when you were still here... Now all I wish that I could re-do everything and take the time to listen to all your stories that I ignored...
I miss you Grandma. You would be 90 this year... I'm sorry that I didn't visit you in the senior center.. I'm sorry that I couldn't tell you how much I appreciate you or how much I love you... I never did realize how much you helped me until now... I love you Grandma.. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you before you left us... I wish I could hold your hand again like how you held mine when I was sick in bed...

RIP Thi Tuc Nguyen
1918 to August 4th 2007.
I'll be the person you believe I would become.